I've been having a lot of professional firsts and yet-to-comes happening lately. It's all incredibly exciting -- not exactly how I'd planned them, but that doesn't really matter. That deviation does spark something that's not quite imposter syndrome but is somewhere in the same genus. I keep having to remind myself that it's really happening; that the end is finally in sight and it's exactly where I always wanted it to be.
In the meantime, I've been making things as a way to distract myself. Not anything big or especially good, mind you, but just whatever silly little project I happen to think of. It's been a really long time since I've gotten to do that and it's going to be a really long time before I get the time for it again once everything starts. Best to enjoy it while I can.